Rejection is something that I am well versed in! I was 19 when I fell for my first love, I remember the moment I knew that I wanted to be with her forever. We had been working at a camp for about a month and we still had another month left, she was asleep on a chair and I put a blanket on her, it was in that moment that I knew.
I visited her a couple times while she was at college, I called and talked with her a lot; one of the visits I told her that I liked her, and I thought we would get married one day (Guys, please don’t ever do that!) I was young and in love, and then one day she never answered. She had started dating another friend of mine who went to college with her. That was the start of many more rejections to come, I have always been that “other guy” that the leading lady leaves.
It hurts to be rejected, it leaves scars that never truly heal, and it leaves a sense of worthlessness inside your very soul. Yet, our souls are not for others to have, it is only for Christ to take and hold.
I am tired and worn from giving my heart to people who don’t want it, I am tired of hurting and hurting others, I am tired of the “no’s” and the “maybe’s” I am tired. But in the weariness we can find rest in Christ!
When I experienced my last major heartbreak, I remember driving in my car and just weeping, it was as though Christ was in the passenger seat with His hands folded and a big lump in His throat, I just yelled “WHY DO YOU LOVE ME?! WHY DO YOU LOVE ME?!” I couldn’t understand why everyone else seemed to want someone else, but Christ wanted ME! I had hurt Him more than anyone, and yet He said “I choose you.’
When a person you love hurts you, it sucks, it really really does. But beloved! The only person who truly matters in this life, He chooses you daily, He took on the ultimate rejection so that we would never taste it, He took on the ultimate denial so that we would never hear it, and He took on our debt so that we would never have to pay it!
In our pain, Christ steps along side us and bears it with us, He looks at us through tear filled eyes and say “You are radiant, you are valued, you are not forgotten, and you are My most beloved.” and He takes that burden and carries it for us.
Us broken hearted wanders have finally found an accepting home, a loving embrace, and a love beyond our rejections and lost dreams. We have found Jesus, and when that which is priceless loves that which is worthless, we become treasures of eternity; because the greatest worth is found in Christ.
Look to Him in love, look to Him in need, look to Him in all things; for He is all that our souls truly long for, He is the Yes that cancels all our “No’s”.
The music will move and so will we, and there will be comfort in the motion of our dance. Hidden in the moment will be a promise of a thousand more slow dances, sometimes in kitchens late at night, or on a street corner with a single lamp illuminating us, or at a friends wedding; but all the while, it will be just you and I, dancing together and feeling our hearts beat as we hold each other.
Even though the music hasn’t started, and I haven’t found my partner yet; I am learning to dance while I wait for you."